Getting Into Gear



Time changes, life goes on.

One of the things about growing up is the lessons we learn as we age. Wisdom comes in gentle whispers, knowledge that is applied in our lives from vast resources of experience that is both personal and observed. Knowledge is a good thing, but it is useless if we don’t have the wisdom to apply it in a way that benefits us in the long run – us or someone else.

As a child, I was a curious and open creature with limitless dreams and fantasies. I could see my dreams around me, I could imagine them as if they were real. This gift helped me become the writer I am today, helped shape me in a way that is difficult to describe. My mind is fertile, alive with so much and yet distant from things that should come naturally to me. Being creative has its downfalls – and I mean creative as a key personality trait, not as a past time or a way to have fun on the rare occasion.

People who are creative by the nature of their soul are plagued by demons few others are able to understand. And I don’t mean “demons” as in a biblical/religious way. When I say demons, I’m referring to the monsters living inside of us, the dark voices and dreams and impressions, the horrid nightmares and visions, the disconnection between person and world. From what I’ve seen, every creative soul has a disadvantage of some kind that makes living in reality difficult or uncomfortable.

We’re intelligent, passionate, wise in our ways…

…but many of us are socially impaired. Or lost. Or fed up. Or apathetic, as I tend to be.

Yet the things we create, we love them. We put ourselves in what we shape and mold, we bleed so the dreams in our heads can become real for other people. When we create, be it professionally or openly (freely), we are opening up a part of ourselves that we want the rest of the world to see — we do it because it’s the only way we know how to speak, truly and honestly. We create because we have to, because something in us refuses to let go until we tell its story or until we create its reality.

Our demons are also our muses, and they will not be silent.

So we can only do one thing. We can only apply ourselves to what we do, either by self-study and learning or by enrolling into a college or program that enhances what we already know. In this manner, we are able to further ourselves. We are able to grow, to rise higher and higher. Our lessons will never end, just as the world of dreams and wonder for a child is endless. We can only move forward, pressing onward without fear or hesitation because our souls know our personal truths even if the mind does not.

We Create For Our Souls.



9 Comments Add yours

  1. And anxiety. Every creative person I know seems to have some form of this. Perhaps it’s the perfectionists in us.

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    1. 93bnmill says:

      And anxiety.

      I knew I was missing something! Each of us suffer from it in large bursts or in smaller, continuous flares that often make getting our work done…hard. We’re hard on ourselves, and we see so many flaws in everything we do. It’s impossible to get around, really, though learning how to deal with that takes a lot of time. Took me forever to figure out how to not want to delete everything and start over from scratch.

      I agree – we’re perfectionists in our own sphere of influence. The tension and the desire to make sure everything is exactly how we want it to be doesn’t make it easier.

      Thanks for dropping the comment, Sandra!


  2. 19dlm94 says:

    This post speaks volumes to me! As writers our souls are painted on pages and sometimes it can be terrifying but at same time it’s a thrill!

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    1. 93bnmill says:

      So agreed, there! It can be scary, but that’s what tends to happen. Our minds are either our friends or our enemies.

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  3. I relate and know this feeling too well.

    The creative in us humans does match the imperfections in us all, but, the outcome blossoms our creation of what makes us writers/artist be the defining moment of hope and creativity within. Anxiety can be controlled by our creative writing, diving deep into our imagination and world’s we have built. Excellent write.

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      1. You’re very welcome. 🙂

        If you ever need a friend to talk to, I’m here to listen.

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      2. 93bnmill says:

        You’re so sweet

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