A Conscious First Step


If you know me, and many of you do, each of you know how easy it is for me to get sidetracked or to have my interests shift and change. I’m been here for about three years, as it is. I plan on sticking around, too. However, I have decided to undergo an entirely different ballpark that’s both exciting and terrifying all-in-one.

I’m self-hosting a new blog called Spectral Beauty. As of today, I already have two posts on it, but it doesn’t have much of a following. It’s still new, it’s still in the process of becoming something I can be really proud of. Here, on Shadows of the Self, I’ve worked hard to get the 200+ followers I have. And, because I love you all so much, I’d like to know what all of you think.

The first post I have is a bit about me. I was diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder at the end of last month after a year of being in therapy. The first post, The Great Unveiling, is a bit about what I thinking. The second post, Standing Stones, is a trip I took today with my best friend and soul-sister to the State Park near our hometown (and it’s heavy with pictures I had taken, though all the ones I wanted on there aren’t up because my computer’s being difficult and doesn’t want to let me fix a few of them so they’re not sideways).

Yes, I’m still in college, but I’ve come to realize that I really want to do something with the things I love. Blogging happens to be one of them. And I know, if I put the effort in, and learn all I need to learn, that I can make a small income off my blog. I can do it. It’s just a matter of getting everything underway. Like, really underway, cause this is a lot harder than I thought it would be.

I did get my Massage Therapy Student License last week, which is good. In a few weeks, I’ll be working on the public as I get ready for my State Test. I’ll be graduating college in three or four months, if everything goes well! There’s so much to do, so much to work towards, and part of me is terrified I’ll do something to botch it up.

Which I don’t want. I’ve gone so far and I’m almost done. Just a few more months.

And I’m hoping to use this new blog of mine to keep pushing myself further into the world, to be someone others can look towards as an inspiration. There’s so much I want to do with my life and I’m not getting any younger. In this way, I feel like the only way I have left to go is forward.

Looking back at what was won’t solve any troubles.

I hope all of you will take a look at what I have already and that you’ll join me in my journey through a new and exciting world that also has me erupting in moments of rage. Trying to get a mailing list organized, for one, is a battle I never thought I’d have to face. Why are there so many options for automated emails? I can’t imagine anyone using all of them.

You can find my self-hosted blog at here. I hope to see you over there!


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